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People ask me —
What do I eat
Everyday?
Not food.
But thoughts.
Insecurities
For breakfast.
Doubts
For lunch.
Overthinking
For dinner.
And sometimes —
At 2:46am —
Leftover fear
As midnight snacks.
The thought
That rattles me
Out of sleep.
What if
I don’t take action?
What if
I stay potential
Forever?
Fear
Of dying
As a loser.
Fear
Of wasting
Every privilege
I’ve received
Until today.
Opportunities
That trusted me.
People
Who believed in me.
Time
That waited
Patiently.
Out-of-box thinking
Doesn’t remove
These meals.
It digests them.
Turns
Insecurity
Into awareness.
Turns
Fear
Into urgency.
Turns
Restlessness
Into movement.
Because avoidance
Is also consumption.
Silence
Is also feeding doubt.
Delay
Is also nourishing regret.
I consume
My hesitation
Daily.
My comparison
Hourly.
My anxiety
Quietly.
But digestion
Is a choice.
Will I let
These thoughts
Poison me?
Or fuel me?
Fear of inaction
Becomes action.
Fear of meaninglessness
Becomes contribution.
Fear of losing
Becomes discipline.
I don’t stop
Eating fear.
I learn
To metabolize it.
To extract
Energy
From discomfort.
To build
Movement
From pressure.
Because what I eat
Shapes
Who I become.
And tonight —
At 2:46am —
I choose
To convert
This fear
Into fuel.
